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Post by Adam Chandler on Jun 17, 2011 1:18:54 GMT -5
After JR confirmed what Adam already knew, Adam was devastated by the news that his son had cancer. Adam had taken a week to think about things, and what he needed to do for his son. Adam knew who he needed to talk to, and that was Dixie. Adam did care about Dixie, but only because Dixie was the mother of their son. Adam never really showed Dixie that he cared about her, and he wanted to let her know that this family was going to get through this major ordeal, and that they were not going to give up on their son.
Adam made is way over to Dixie and Tad's home, and pulled up into the driveway. Adam then shed a tear, before he got out of the car. This wasn't the kind of conversation that Adam was looking forward to having with Dixie, but it was a conversation that needed to happen between them. Adam then got out of his car, and walked to the front door of their home. He rang the doorbell, and stood there waiting for either Tad or Dixie to answer the door.
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Post by Dix C. Martin on Jun 17, 2011 9:05:24 GMT -5
After Tad and Myra insisted Dixie take some time off from PVH, since she'd been working double overtime lately, she had the house to herself since Tad was out, and Joe and Ruth had the kids spend the night at their place yesterday.
She'd been cleaning all morning long and was wearing jean cutoff shorts and a beat up T-shirt of Tad's, not planning on going out or having anyone come over. Until she heard the doorbell, and groaned. Figures when she looked like a bum off the street she'd get a visitor.
"Man..."
Dixie whined. Going over to the front she opened the door and was stunned to see who her guest was.
"I....Adam?!"
She exclaimed, genuinely surprised. She didn't even know Adam knew her address. But once the shock wore off hospitality instincts kicked in.
"I...come in, won't you?"
Stepping back she let him in the house, looking at her ex curiously.
"I'm sorry, wasn't expecting company or I'd, have started cleaning earlier."
She sighed, running a hand through her hair.
"Anyways um...what brings you by?"
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Post by Adam Chandler on Jun 17, 2011 13:42:21 GMT -5
"Oh that's fine Dixie.." Adam said as he let out a sigh, and looked down. He knew that Dixie knew about JR, because JR told him that she knew, but this was the part that he hated so much. "Dixie..I.." Adam began to talk, but he paused for a moment. He then walked further into the house, and into the living room, where he then turned around to face Dixie who had followed him in there. "JR told me about his...cancer, and he also told me that you knew" Adam said as he let out another heavy sigh.
"I came here to see how you are taking it, Dixie? I know this must be very hard on you Dixie, like it is on me, but you are his mother, so how are you dealing with this?" Adam asked, looking back up to the mother of his son.
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Post by Dix C. Martin on Jun 20, 2011 23:19:14 GMT -5
Sighing, Dixie looked as she perched on the arm of the sofa, wringing a dust cloth in her hands. She shouldn't have been surprised Adam would be by to discuss the cancer, but it hurt her it had to be discussed at all. She found herself trying to block it out more often than not. His question though threw her a bit. She was a mother whose child was possibly dying, it had to have been obvious even to Adam Chandler how she was feeling.
"How do you think I'm taking it, Adam?"
She snorted, tossing the rag to the side in frustration. But felt guilt set in shortly after.
"I'm angry, I'm afraid. If I'm not, in tears I want to punch a wall.
Suffice it to say I didn't and I'm not, taking things well. I haven't since he was diagnosed."
She answered, before replying to the next question.
"I'm dealing with it like any mother would. I'm trying to get past the nightmare it is and be there for my child. But it feels like no matter what I do nothing is gonna change. J.R's still sick, and scared. And it's not like when he'd scrape his knee or have a bad dream. I can't make it better or make it go away. I don't even feel like I can do right by him, like I'm making everything worse."
She admitted, needing to put that out there. But right after she heard the words she realized who she said them to and scolded herself. This wasn't Tad or Angie or someone she trusted. This was Adam Chandler, who would embrace her making things worse to make him look good to their son. He had before. And she didn't doubt he'd use what she just said against her somehow.
"Oh, great...that's probably just what you wanted to hear, right."
Dixie sighed bitterly, crossing her arms protectively over herself, lowering her head to hide her teary eyes. No way was she letting Adam of all people see her like this.
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Post by Adam Chandler on Jun 23, 2011 0:49:18 GMT -5
"Dixie, I know this is very hard for you, and I can see how this is really been hard on you" Adam said as he crossed his arms, and looked down. "This hasn't been easy for me either, Dixie. My son...my son is suffering and their is not a damn thing that I can do about it! Not a damn thing, Dixie!" Adam said, getting upset, but not at her. This was hard on Adam, and he being the powerful man that he was, felt powerless in that moment. Adam didn't want to show Dixie his weakness, but at this time, he had no choice. "We are losing our boy, Dixie...and we can't stop it. We can only be there for him, and watch him suffer and die" Adam said as he turned around and looked to the floor.
"If I could, I would trade places with JR in a heartbeat. Despite his and mine differences, I still love him, because he is my son, but..your his mother" Adam said turning back around, and facing Dixie. "There are things that you can do for him, that I can't, and do you know how that makes me feel? It makes me feel like a failure as a father. I failed him Dixie, and I can't change the past, and you know what, I failed you too" Adam admitted. In those moments, Adam felt like he had no choice but to be vulnerable, or else he wasn't going to get through this.
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Post by Dix C. Martin on Jun 25, 2011 12:34:40 GMT -5
Hearing Adam say with no uncertainty that J.R would die, Dixie stormed right to where he was standing poised to slap him. Call it denial or wishful thinking but she wasn't willing to accept outliving her firstborn son. Even though she'd been a wreck lately it almost took Adam saying that for her to get some fire back.
She softened a bit though at his admission that he felt like a failure towards J.R, and was stunned at his saying he failed her as well. Shaking her head disapprovingly but sympathetically, she nodded to the sofa.
"C'mere and sit down, okay?"
She instructed, and surprisingly he obeyed. Looking him square in the eyes she spoke.
"Adam, I know you love our son. And I know you'd trade places with him if you could. I would too. And you know there's another thing we have in common, the both of us have made mistakes with J.R that we'll regret the rest of our lives. I never expected him to forgive me for being gone all those years, but he did. And he's forgiven you for things too. And, okay... there are things that I can still provide him with. But there are things he's only ever gotten from you. His freedom thanks to judges you've paid off, the business he cares for so deeply, his devotion to his child. Even with A.J, when J.R was battling to keep him in his life and Tad failed him and I was gone, you were there as much as you could be. You're not as much of a failure as..you think you are, Adam. You're no saint, far from it. But, you're not a failure. Even with me."
Dixie said honestly. Despite how rocky things between her Adam had always been and always would be, he was still the father of her child and because of that a small, small..part of her would always care about him. And seeing him like this instead of the obnoxiously proud, stubborn, arrogant master manipulator he was bothered her.
"Don't get me wrong, I'd rather eat glass than be Mrs. Adam Chandler again but you did do one thing right by me. You gave me a handsome, strong son to be proud of. J.R is the best of both of us, the one thing you and I did right. And despite, everything..I can't see the father of my child as lower than the scum of the earth. So if you came here looking for me to, attack you or call you out..I'm not going to."
Dixie said stubbornly.
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Post by Adam Chandler on Jun 25, 2011 22:13:03 GMT -5
"Thank you Dixie. That means alot to me, to hear you say that. I have always given you a hard time, and I won't apologize for it, because I don't regret doing it, because that is who I am, and will always be, but the one thing that I will apologize for is using our son against you. It was completely wrong against you, and against our son." Adam said he looked over to Dixie. Adam was softening up some, but only because of JR being sick. If it wasn't for him being sick, he would still by this tyrant, and arrogant man that he always was, and still was to some agree.
"I think it would be nice if we all band together as a family for JR. I know that Tad doesn't really like me, nor do I him, but if JR sees this family banding together, I think it would be good for him, and it would keep his spirits up. We all don't have to be best of friends, but we can atleast be civil, for him." Adam suggested. Dixie was right, he would do anything for his children, even if it meant playing nice to the ones that he didn't like so much.
"So, why don't we all plan a dinner for our family. The whole family can come, and we can all do this for JR. I also think AJ would love it too, to see his entire family together in the same room, espicially since I know he misses his mother so much.." Adam said as he looked down. "But, I know Marissa loves that boy like he was her own.."
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Post by Dix C. Martin on Jul 3, 2011 16:06:14 GMT -5
Rolling her eyes when Adam said he'd never apologize for giving her a hard time, Dixie gave him a smirky smile. Now she felt like she was dealing with her loathsome ex again and it felt normal.
But it did her good hearing him apologize for using J.R against her, when he was a baby and even when he was growing up.
"Thank you for saying that, I..I accept your apology."
The blond said sincerely, and heard the rest of Adam's offer.
"You're right, we can be. And, the dinner should be fine. I know A.J would love it."
Dixie smiled, as Adam mentioned Marissa and her smile continued.
"She does, doesn't she."
Fiddling with a ring on her finger she spoke up.
"You know when J.R told me what happened to Babe, I don't remember being so afraid for him. He just looked so lost and I didn't know if I could pull him out of it, if anyone could. But, then Marissa came along and, everything changed. He got that spark back, you know? And I think she's good for J.R too. I feel like she's giving him that extra incentive to fight but, keeping him calm, grounded. I feel good about the two of them together, do you?"
She asked curiously.
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Post by Adam Chandler on Jul 7, 2011 23:08:02 GMT -5
"I actually do feel good about Marissa and JR together. Marissa got him out of a dark place, and well, I believe that if JR survives it is going to be because of her love for him, and of course our love for him as well." Adam said as he looked over to Dixie. "Well, I must be going before Tad shows up and sees me here. That wouldn't be a pretty site Dixie.." Adam said as he walked past her and then turned to look at her once more.
"I forgot one more thing that I needed to say. I am so glad that you are our son's mother. I couldn't have asked for a better woman to be the mother of my child" he said with a small smile, as he then turned to walk to the front door. "I will call you about the dinner, alright" he said as he looked back one more time, and got a nod out of her, as he then opened the door, and walked out, closing the door behind him.
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